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Asslamualaikum wrh wbt

Agak lama tak update blog because of agak kedepressedan nowadays.
Dah penat dah nak fikir problems. I'm afraid that, all of the wires inside my brain might break down. Poor brain!

Its all about my ex-BFF. FYI, not Boy-Friend-Forever but Best-Friend-Forever yang telah tidak lagi forever. Haha! Lawak gyler ade ex-BFF. Idk... rase macam takde buat salah kat die. bukan just rase, tapi dah buat kajian pun, cuma bukan di dalam lab. Not saying that i've never done wrong to her but this time I really don't know what was/were my fault.

Hmmm. Just boleh recall. The last time I called her, it was last year when she had just finished watching movie with her kak dewi. Our conversation was just fine. Filled with laughs and jokes. And after that, there was no more communication (kat myspace ade aa sikit) between us. And I thought both of us were busy with each other businesses.

For me, we were just OK. No big deal kott. Macam. hey, fine, you and me have our own life here and there. kan? Tapi mid-year of this year, she did change a little bit with her physical appearance tapi lepas tu memberi kesan yang buruk pulak to our relationship. Pelik tak? Ykw... It was like... Tak de angin tak de ribut tibe tibe puting beliung. Tapi tu tak pelik sangat because it's a natural disaster. But this case was SO/REALLY/VERY/TOO weird.

And then, I tried to approach her back. Tapi die insist jugak and it was like ko-telah-buat-kesalahan-yang-sangat-besar. Well then. tak pe la. orang dah tak sudi, nak buat mcm mane. Tapi aku sayang die. Siyesly, tak leh nak tak suke/benci die. Sebab dulu we've gone through SO much experiences together. And for me she is my kawan-dunia-akhirat.

But yesterday, BFF aku jugak yang bernama Hanis, telah datang kepadaku pada waktu rehat

Hanis : Aku ade bende nak cakap kat ko pasal Mira.
Me : Hah? Ape kaitan ko ngan Mira? Asal?
Hanis : Tak...Tadi Nas pesan kat aku suro bgtau ko yang Mira ckp die takkan approve ape-ape request dari myspace, friendster, facebook or whatever dari ko and persahabatan korang putus.
Me : Whaaattt?!

Wallawey... memang aku tak sedih aa. memang tak terkejut lah aku. memang pesanan penaja yang paling aku nanti-nantikan la. Aku memang suke. Aku memang tak nangis.

Then, since that, aku betul-betul sedar yang kesalahan yang aku buat (kesalahan yang aku pun tak tau ape) memang merosakkan ukhuwwah yang telah terjalin sejak sekian lamanya. Bagus kan putus kawan? Paling bagus. nanti korang sume amalkan lah ye. pastu bgtau aku ek. terima kaseeeh...

Untuk ko : pe masalah aku kat ko? pe masalah ko kat aku? ko tak puas ati ngan aku pun tak yah aa nak guna posmen. ko ade bayar gaji kat die ke? atau die ade bayar gaji kat kau? klau tak leh nak ckp straight pun tak aa guna posmen. tak aa nak buat aku curious. msg last ko bg aku "rambut aku bukan percuma.itu pasti" pe masalah ko ha weh?! nonsense dow! tak penah keluar pun dari mulut aku pasal rambut ko percuma ke tak percuma ke. ko nak buka ape ke suke kau aa. takde masalah pun bg aku. pastu ko ckp "aku xley agak lak reaction korang" pastu tibe2 ko ckp "Dan psal korg. aku malas nak komen aa. papepun. xde kene mengena ngan tudung aku" haha. kau memang buat lawak. dah aa. setakat ni je aa. klau de pape lagi aku tambah ek. tapi mcm dah takde je because you ARE my ex-BFF and I thank you for that.

SO, Mira Farhana Binti Ithnin, klau ko tak puas hati ke ape ke. ko luahkan la kat posmen ko tu. pastu ko bayar aa die supaya die bg tau aku. klau nak claim kat aku pun boleh...dengan senang hati.

*agak keterlaluan ke post ni? jika ye, sila beritahu saye di sekolah.takpayah nak ngumpat kat belakang.

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*ni blog aku. suke hati aku laa